your gonna miss this

Yesterday me, Amanda, Tom, Ethan, and Jared a little bit later all went over Tom's house to discuss senior trips plans and trying to find a house at Hilton Head. Well our we found some places but today I was suppose to call the houses to check rates and availability...well...most places you have to be 25 years old to stay which is gay as shit but oh well the search continues. But anyway, after an hour or two or searching we just started to mess around. I haven't laughed as much as I did that day in a long time. It was so fun just being ourselves and being weird (I don't even know if you can call it that). But nights like yesterday are the ones that I am truly going to miss when I go to college. Not being able to call them up just to hang out is going to suck but I know that we are all going to to stay friends and whenever we get breaks we will see each other. I really am going to miss these people and some others too.

On another completely different note, want to know what is really annoying? When people think they are sick by posting on twitter and instagram drinking and smoking. Like you don't look cool? You look quite retarded actually. Sorry if anyone who is reading this is one of those people but it's the truth. Most of the boys probably don't even really like the girls, they just may be easy. Who knows. That's just my opinion. But anywho, drinking and smoking is one thing, but showing off that you do it is just stupid. NO ONE CARES.

Also, WPIALS is this coming week and I am so excited/ nervous. I have a chance to win 4 gold medals (2 individually and 2 relays) and I hope I can pull it off! I know it is going to be a great meet, and I am glad some of my friends are coming to watch :) Well, that's all for now. Until next time.

high school swimming coming to an end

The other night I had my first and last senior night. I said I wasn't going to cry, and what did i do? Cried. Although I may complain more than most about my sport, I will admit that I am going to miss my coaches and not seeing some of good friends everyday. It is going to be weird being with a new coach and a new group of girls next year. Yes, I am nervous about swimming in college, but shockingly, I am also very excited. My biggest want for college that I am most excited about is meeting new people! I have some of my best friends ever here, but I also dislike (some dislike VERY strongly) a lot of people at west a. I am so glad that i won't have to see any of these people at college. I like change, and college i know will be great.

Well, in less than a month from now, states (my last high school meet) will be over. IM SO PUMPED THAT I WILL BE DONE. No more worrying about suits, no more traveling with the team, and a break! What more could i want? Hopefully, the girls team will pull through and have a great state meet. It would be nice for our medley relay to get a gold medal ;)

Although this was a short blog, its a big topic that is shortly coming to close. Let's go girls!

productive night...well sort of

well this evening has been pretty productive. knowing that i have a bio test tuesday and a stats test thursday that i am going to fail, i decided to do all my english/ senior project homework that will be due through out the week. this drama project for english, senior project, and a thousand splendid suns homework is composed of many tasks that i had to do. so ensuring that i will have time to study for bio and stats tomorrow and tuesday night (maybe not so much for stats) i will need to have completed all of that. so i did. and it feels great to finally feel productive seeing that it has been a while since the last time i did that. also before i got to do that i got to spend some time with some of the few people that i love to death. although we were missing a few, i still got to hang out with some of my best friends and have a lot of laughs (thank you ty). anyways they always put me in a better mood and no matter what i always smile around them.

but other than that, a lot of things have been on my mind lately. for one, i dont know why but i just feel so awkward with people all of a sudden. im not really sure, maybe its just me, but i just dont feel like myself a little bit. i hate that i cant act myself with people that aren't my closest friends. i wish i was more bubbly but i just get so shy; i know it may be hard to see that for some of my friends because normally i am the complete opposite but it just feel like that right now. maybe it's just a phase. also, this is definitely a cliche, but my biggest pet peeve in the world is when people talk shit on other people, then exactly five seconds later then are the bestest friends they could ever be a love each other. okay maybe not that extreme in some cases, but it still makes my point. if your really friends with them or like them, then why waste your time talking shit on them? i mean i doubt really anyone cares if like them or if you dont like them, but dont be fake about it. we are only going to be here for a couple of months so just be surrounded by the people you love and dont try to change yourself to fit in.

another amazing thing though that has come into my life is....pandora radio! holy crap, i never knew i could love radio so much until i recently started really listening to it. i found some really good music that people might think is really weird but i love it! most of it is sort of techno/indie rock/pop haha i dont really know what to call it. but some of my favorite artists that i have been listening to is Ellie Goulding, Florence + the Machine, the Bird and the Bee, Keane, and even a little Skrillex. the music is just so chill which fits my personality really well. i love it. but i think i am all caught up now on what i had to say so i am going to go get ready for bed seeing that it is past my usual 10 o'clock bed time :) goodnight

randommm dancinggg

my blog tonight is inspired by my sistor because she blogged tonight and i feel like i should do the same since it's been awhile. well some random things have been popping into my head lately so i feel as if i should share them. as me and my sistor were driving today, i asked her a lot of random questions to think about.

if you had one super power, what would it be?
if you got 120 million dollars, what would you do with it?
what do you think the future is going to be like?
and so on...

i'm not really sure why these questions popped into my head but it was fun to see what her thoughts were and how they differed from my own. one big thought that has been recirculating is the thought of college and what is going to happen afterward. although i am super excited about starting a new beginning (and believe me, i cannot wait to be out of here) i am also nervous about starting basically a new life. i am not going to see my best friends everyday, i am not going to see my family as often, i am going to miss those days of just hanging out in my room, without a roommate. i hope that everything i want college to be is what it is, and that it doesn't disappoint me. well, time to read some more of the hunger games series :) (EVERYONE SHOULD READ IT). until next time 

sunny in january

its been a while since i lasted blogged but that just gives me a better excuse to vent on here i guess. how can the people that use to be your closest friends change so much? lately it feels like some of my old friends just like to spread rumors and start drama with some of my other closest friends. but the thing is i dont understand why? why do they feel the need to spread rumors for no reason? maybe its just me but even if i wasn't friends with someone like how i use to be, i would never spread a rumor to potentially hurt them. another thing is i feel like i am one of the only people who dont hang out with people i dont like. for example, some people i know talk so much shit on other people and then they turn around and hang out with them like they are best friends??? who does that? that is one of my biggest pet peeves and i dont understand the reason for being that 2-faced if you would like to call it. i dont know, thats just my opinion. but for me, the new year is starting off not too bad. i think over the holidays i was in a slump and i spent too much time looking back in the past. but now that the new year has started i am in a good place with myself and i cant wait to see what the future has in store for me :) maybe that's why it has been so sunny in january

happiness and friends

i. love. my. friends. i have a couple different groups of friends but i love that and hate that at the same time. it feels like i have 3 different lives sometimes. all groups are just so different from each other but i love them all the same. i've started realizing that having my friends is all i need right now. i dont need to be with a significant other to be happy or too have fun. i wouldnt want to be one those people rushing in a relationship to try to be happy. just let things happen on its own. were all going to college in a couple months. being that there is 30,000 kids at college, i am bound to find someone sooner or later so its better to just wait for now. but anyways, im starting to become happy with my life, and some of my close friends are becoming happier too (which in turn makes me happy). i am a believer in "everything happens for a reason" so i know eventually, everything will work out for the better.

senioritis

everyone knows what senioritis is. its when seniors start to not care about school anymore and pretty much do anything to get by. well....i majorly have senioritis. its gotten so bad that i dont even take my bookbag out of my car. pretty soon im not even going to be carrying a bookbag and i'll just have one folder with me with papers in it that i dont even look at. oopsies. and i pretty much tell myself that i dont have homework or tests to study for....even though i do. for example, i am about 3 chapters behind in econ right now and i really dont care. ahhhh graduation, where are you?