your gonna miss this

Yesterday me, Amanda, Tom, Ethan, and Jared a little bit later all went over Tom's house to discuss senior trips plans and trying to find a house at Hilton Head. Well our we found some places but today I was suppose to call the houses to check rates and availability...well...most places you have to be 25 years old to stay which is gay as shit but oh well the search continues. But anyway, after an hour or two or searching we just started to mess around. I haven't laughed as much as I did that day in a long time. It was so fun just being ourselves and being weird (I don't even know if you can call it that). But nights like yesterday are the ones that I am truly going to miss when I go to college. Not being able to call them up just to hang out is going to suck but I know that we are all going to to stay friends and whenever we get breaks we will see each other. I really am going to miss these people and some others too.

On another completely different note, want to know what is really annoying? When people think they are sick by posting on twitter and instagram drinking and smoking. Like you don't look cool? You look quite retarded actually. Sorry if anyone who is reading this is one of those people but it's the truth. Most of the boys probably don't even really like the girls, they just may be easy. Who knows. That's just my opinion. But anywho, drinking and smoking is one thing, but showing off that you do it is just stupid. NO ONE CARES.

Also, WPIALS is this coming week and I am so excited/ nervous. I have a chance to win 4 gold medals (2 individually and 2 relays) and I hope I can pull it off! I know it is going to be a great meet, and I am glad some of my friends are coming to watch :) Well, that's all for now. Until next time.

high school swimming coming to an end

The other night I had my first and last senior night. I said I wasn't going to cry, and what did i do? Cried. Although I may complain more than most about my sport, I will admit that I am going to miss my coaches and not seeing some of good friends everyday. It is going to be weird being with a new coach and a new group of girls next year. Yes, I am nervous about swimming in college, but shockingly, I am also very excited. My biggest want for college that I am most excited about is meeting new people! I have some of my best friends ever here, but I also dislike (some dislike VERY strongly) a lot of people at west a. I am so glad that i won't have to see any of these people at college. I like change, and college i know will be great.

Well, in less than a month from now, states (my last high school meet) will be over. IM SO PUMPED THAT I WILL BE DONE. No more worrying about suits, no more traveling with the team, and a break! What more could i want? Hopefully, the girls team will pull through and have a great state meet. It would be nice for our medley relay to get a gold medal ;)

Although this was a short blog, its a big topic that is shortly coming to close. Let's go girls!

productive night...well sort of

well this evening has been pretty productive. knowing that i have a bio test tuesday and a stats test thursday that i am going to fail, i decided to do all my english/ senior project homework that will be due through out the week. this drama project for english, senior project, and a thousand splendid suns homework is composed of many tasks that i had to do. so ensuring that i will have time to study for bio and stats tomorrow and tuesday night (maybe not so much for stats) i will need to have completed all of that. so i did. and it feels great to finally feel productive seeing that it has been a while since the last time i did that. also before i got to do that i got to spend some time with some of the few people that i love to death. although we were missing a few, i still got to hang out with some of my best friends and have a lot of laughs (thank you ty). anyways they always put me in a better mood and no matter what i always smile around them.

but other than that, a lot of things have been on my mind lately. for one, i dont know why but i just feel so awkward with people all of a sudden. im not really sure, maybe its just me, but i just dont feel like myself a little bit. i hate that i cant act myself with people that aren't my closest friends. i wish i was more bubbly but i just get so shy; i know it may be hard to see that for some of my friends because normally i am the complete opposite but it just feel like that right now. maybe it's just a phase. also, this is definitely a cliche, but my biggest pet peeve in the world is when people talk shit on other people, then exactly five seconds later then are the bestest friends they could ever be a love each other. okay maybe not that extreme in some cases, but it still makes my point. if your really friends with them or like them, then why waste your time talking shit on them? i mean i doubt really anyone cares if like them or if you dont like them, but dont be fake about it. we are only going to be here for a couple of months so just be surrounded by the people you love and dont try to change yourself to fit in.

another amazing thing though that has come into my life is....pandora radio! holy crap, i never knew i could love radio so much until i recently started really listening to it. i found some really good music that people might think is really weird but i love it! most of it is sort of techno/indie rock/pop haha i dont really know what to call it. but some of my favorite artists that i have been listening to is Ellie Goulding, Florence + the Machine, the Bird and the Bee, Keane, and even a little Skrillex. the music is just so chill which fits my personality really well. i love it. but i think i am all caught up now on what i had to say so i am going to go get ready for bed seeing that it is past my usual 10 o'clock bed time :) goodnight