friends.

first off let me say that no matter how things got to this, im so grateful for the friends i have right now. along the way i have lost some of my best friends that i cant see myself getting back anytime soon. im sad to see that they are out of my life, but i hope they are truly happy in whatever they are doing. although some of them i wish i could rekindle the friendship that we use to have; if they wanted to mend things, then i know they would try harder to, so why should i have to be the one who always has to try to make things work? sometimes i wish i could go back in time and try fix some of the problems but i know in the end there would just be more problems down the road. im incredibly happy with the friends i have today, i dont know what i would do without them. i hope the friendships i have today will last for a lifetime and not be forgotten like some of my old friendships in the past. but looking at the past seems useless so i need to keep looking forward.